Learn to tell your feelings to a friend or a close person.

For that, I have already known since primary school, yet I never had the courage to tell most things to others. Until last year, if my maths teacher hadn't brought me to the counsellor, I'm pretty sure by now I would have been dead.
Learn to speak out your troubles to another person(this person must be a trusted one,though). Trust me, after you rant on and on to a listening ear, you'll feel a million times better. Any form of letting out those words work(that depends on what kind of trouble you're facing, LOL), be it blogging, Facebook, Twitter, anything! However, the best choice is always talking to a counsellor, teachers, or parents.
Seriously, just let those troubles go. Get help, and in no time, you'll feel a lot better. Just don't try to kill yourself, they don't solve a single thing. External, internal pain... They never beat the pain deep down in you heart...

What's shown on the outside are, at most times, simply illusions.

Today, I am very unhappy with someone that annoyed me real badly. And worse, this person does not even know what he did wrong, and has entirely no idea that he has annoyed me. To make things worse, this person is super close to me.
Alright, I shall stop with the ranting and proceed with my topic today.
What you see on a person's face may not always be what he/she thinks deep in his/her heart. It's just almost impossible to tell whether a person's facial emotions are real.
Oh what the heck. This topic just seems so complicated. Maybe I shall talk about my day in school today.
In assembly, nearly the entire sec 2 cohort died from gas poisoning. What exactly happened?
We were having a nice little assembly when suddenly a terrible odour filled the lecture hall. Everyone started clamping their hands over their noses, but whatever we did, we could not seem to breathe a bit of fresh air, nor could we do anything to stop the sick smell from spreading around.
Our form teacher then mentioned that someone was burning styrofoam(what the heck?!) and that was the smell emitted. Our LM had to release us early, and we lost entirely half of our assembly.
After leaving the lecture hall, I was glad that I could breathe some fresh air(like FINALLY!) but I could not help feeling nauseous, on the addition that I had been sick for the past few days. Even as I'm typing, I am still suffering from a throbbing headache.
Oh well, I guess tonight I'll have to turn in a little earlier.
That's all for today, I guess...

It's been ages since I last wrote in a blog entry.

Let's see... How long has it been? Like maybe 9 days ago...?
Life's has been rather normal, I passed my geog, bio, maths. Yet, with just 1 more mark I can already get a distinction for my bio. Oh well... Next time I'll just work harder...
And harder...
And harder...
Till I fufill my wish of being a chemist/biologist/forensic pathologist(if that's what they call it, LOL).
A day ago, I went to support my juniors in the primary school wushu competitions with my friends, and congratulated them for winning. To be honest, I was really proud of them, they had really done well (:
My competitions will be in another two weeks, and my favourite teacher will also be supporting me.
I know on both of my competition days, someone(or perhaps some people) will be quietly supporting me, even if they do not shout for me, I can still "read" their faces and mind. Seeing whoever faces are there, I know which people are actually supporting me silently.
That's all for today...

Today isn't a very good day either.

Though X came back, I realised he wasn't really talking to me much ):
So apparently I didn't have anyone mature enough to talk to, plus, my brother is seriously too dumb to know a single thing...
So apparently, today is a real moody day. No one to confide feelings to, no particular topic... Sad life )):
I can't take it anymore- Some day I'm just gonna kill myself. Sorry, loved ones...

>:(

Today, I got really mad with a few of my division's girls. I mean, I hadn't done anything wrong, yet they just shot me this fxcked up look. What the hell had I done wrong...? I hadn't insulted them, they just gave me the kind of look as though every single trouble on them was caused by me. Worse, my bf was on some kind of councillor camp, and I had practically no one to hear me out and listening to my ranting. I got so mad that I didn't even crack a grin when our coach joked. That, could already easily show exactly how mad I had gotten...
I just feel that we're so unbonded.
Thanks to some people...
But then, I will have to put up with them for the rest of secondary school, in which I don't know whether I will be able to with all that unbondedness(is there such a word?).
Sorry girls, maybe I just can't work with you people. One day, I swear, I'll leave you girls, and at that point of time I won't know whether you'll even remember me, your friend/fiend or whatever you take me as.

XD

I was so happy today! So glad that X (someone) remembered this special day... And I was so afraid that he wouldn't remember as he is really busy these few days for a councillor camp.
But when I told him that, he said:
No matter what... I will still remember :)
Oh well... Looks like my worrying didn't really pay off, or maybe yes.
Who cares anyway...
Tomorrow is the start of our March school holidays, yet I am packed for the entire week with self-study programmes and 5 times training. 3 times in school, and the other two outside of school(kinda acts like enrichment).
So... What kind of a holiday is it when you're packed from head to toe...?

:/

I'm back after a week... Thanks to common test. UHH.

Tomorrow(that's Sunday if you don't know) is a really BIG day... 13 March :3
And as of today, I really want to jump off a building and end my life, yet I can't bear too see some people get hurt or emotionally unstable just because of me.
It's just a good thing that someone(maybe some people too) is willing to stick with me through this...
Someone that I will never wish that he will be hurt...
Someone that is so super close to me.
And I do not want that person(or a few) to get so hurt just over me.
And the reason I have this kind of shitty thing is because of a few people.
YET, I can't believe I'm actually dumb enough to bottle up EVERYTHING.
But, I have learned my lesson: Next time I will tell everything to someone I trust.

WTF!?

God. What's this crap man! The pictures I am trying to view (on facebook) can't load! How lousy...
Today is Friday. Tomorrow is Saturday (DUH!). BUT! I am unhappy... Cos tomorrow we're having Milo triathlon. And I have to face someone me and some of my friends dislike. EEH. YERH. YUCK. (GROSS!)
What's more, I am really angry today...
Yesterday and today night, I got murdered by the mighty english language... How nice??
Murdered... I'm sorry my beloved. All I can say is that I love you alot... And I was really happy that I met you-
WAIT! What the heck am I thinking about! GRR. My imagination is just too great...
I'm still alive (DUH. If not you wouldn't be able to see this post)...
Kayy. That's all for today...

I'm BACK! :D

HI! Yes, I'm back after many many days... Thanks to the mountain of homework I was given days ago.
Well... As the days flew past... I nearly didn't realise, it's already March. WOW.
Then again, many things happened these few days, and today... I was given:
-A Milo Triathlon goodie bag and
-Some kind of reward for attending 10 hours in the school PUMP progarmme.
I had no idea that I was the first one to even hit 10 hours, while there's another girl who is pretty close to 10 hours, but only 9 hours plus.
On tuesday was my friends birthday, and wednesday my coach's.
Whee~ Apparently, I don't have much to say today...
Kayy BYEE :D